my mystery

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Okay Hmmmm decided to delicate this part of the blog to a very special person! (:

Thank you for being there for me in all days & nights.

No matter how much discouragement life has given me, you always manage to encourage me & give me the strength to continue on.

当我想要放弃的时候，想要放弃自己的时候，你会用最特别的方式让我重新振作。

这几年，没有你的鼓励，我真的做不到这么好。

跟你聊天的时光，总是最温暖的，最贴心的。

Hmm writing this post serves as a reminder for me that there are really people who are committed in my life & I really shouldn’t give up so easily. I can’t disappoint them, I’ll live up to not only my expectations, but also their expectations. & I need to be thankful to God in all days. (: Even though life had been really tough for me recently, at least God & the great people He placed around me really care loads! ♥

I called, You answered.

And You came to my rescue.

And I, wanna go where You go

Haha from an ex-clsmate's blog: Girls give & forgive, Guys get & forget. xD

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Happy!!!~~~

Hahaha In a super good mood today!(:
Lol usually when i blog in english, i'm relatively damn high! :D :D :D

DSO Family Day @ East Coast! (:
Got loads of things to say about it! Generally, a great time spent there! (Excluding the sun & all those scratch/blue-black/sunburnt that i've got xD) Hahahaha though we didnt win olympic challenge, we had loads of fun. And congrats to Agnes! Who won a LCD TV for the intern room... for 1 day. xP Totally feel that my childhood days coming back to me today due to the games. I went to play this fishing game & got myself some prizes. HAHAHAHAHA. And East Coast is super prettyyyyyy today! ^^ Totally nice weather for all those water activities! (Though the sun burnt me) The last time i went there was overnight bikehike at like 9pm & there's a great sunrise on that day too. So seaside is such a nice place to go to! (:

Shopping with sister @ Bugis before church! (:
I'm still very high over it. Though it's just a short while, but it had really been long since we went shopping tgt! (: I bought quite alot of stuff due to my Bugis Junction shopping voucher! Okies i sound retarded to be so high over shopping! But still it's kinda REALLY fun to shop with her! (: (: (: Didnt try to persuade her to go CHC with me. xD But she's really nice to offer to go with me! Yay really thankful, though i rejected it, cause i know she dun like it there.

Expo Service! (:
Now i can really conclude: Expo atm is very different from JW. I liked the sermon very much today. Pst's question struck me today: "Who do you think Jesus is?" Need to have a deeper thought in it. He also talked about finding people who are committed to your life, i.e. people who's there to support you, truly devoted to your life etc. Hmmm i'm really thankful to God that I have already found a few committed people in my life, & a few whom i'll committe into their lives. (:

Oh not forgetting, really thankful to friends who gave me company for the past week. Really gave me loads of strength. They may not know, i really treasure their simple company & these actions really helped me to move through this trial & tough period in life. (: (: (:

Hahaha so many (: faces in their blog post! (: I must be super happy. ^^
& I'm reading something damn interesting! LOL~

Seriously, i tink i must be losing my mind/brains.
Cause yes indeed, there's the charm. Oh no... -.-
But since i prayed, i believe that there's power in it. ^^
See how it goes... & i look forward to the next gathering! (: (: (:
Jiayou Yinghui! & Jiayou you know who! Since we are encountering the same prob! xD

Cause you're too special. I just can't let go...

Thursday, November 5, 2009

女

Haha today someone's description about me: 早熟的女孩，幼稚的女人。I stoned at this comment for awhile. Speechless and didnt really get what it means. Then i realise, it quite an accurate comment about me. Hmmm 果然是旁观者清。One who truly cares understands more about me than myself. (:

Seriously confused about this stupid problem again!
Oh i must be nuts & craps. =____='''
How much more strength must i put in? To let this fact settle in... ):
Just walk away. walk away. walk away.
Just say goodbye. goodbye. goodbye.

Happy 17th birthday(tml) ahzhen! (: Stop balding!!! xD
It's your 18th birthday tonight! (: Enjoy!

再翻翻曾经的照片，原来我真的也可以笑得那么快乐。
所以，我知道那时的我有好多你给的幸福围绕着。
现在，我应该也可以那样笑吧！(:

"It is one thing to know that the sun shines on us during the day. But it is another thing to believe that the sun is still shining even though we don’t feel its warmth and all we see are dark clouds. " ♥

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

最近心情突然好起来了。(: (: (:

太好了~

Really quite excited about BSP trip. But it's quite sad that they separated us into 3 different places! Miss those past trips where we can all get tgt and have fun! (: Not regretting that i changed from Scotland to US. It'll be great to go with yuan & janice they all. FUN FUN FUN

And spending the afternn with XBD! (:

It's great to catch up with her. And it's quite lucky that we weren't scolded by the librarian for making noises! 难得she never scold me for being loud. Hahaha we're editing each other's OP things and she was trying to correct my as-usual-very-bad pronunciation & script. And were also discussing all those random but interesting stuff. :D I found out she was in gym in sec1!!!! Damn shocked!~ Didnt know that she was from gym. Or maybe i forgot. xD Bad memory skills. );

Oh ya, not forgetting our crazy sleepovers! :D :D :D Though it'll be more fun staying over at hy's house with those nice instruments + K set + her band, but my parents wldnt allow. ): Chatted like mad that night. Seriously 2 crazy woman talking, laughing, laming... How quiet can it get? My parents were like telling us to lower down our volume for dunno how many times. xP

Yupps that's basically all the fun i had the past days. (: They lift up my spirits.

Oh & i'm tired of guessing your feelings. If u dun tell me straight into my face, i dun wan to explore myself anymore. (: 对于你，我觉得，有时候，有些话，要大声，说出来。

在黑暗的地方，才看得见真正的光亮。

我需要你，因你像我需要你一样需要我。(: ♥

Monday, November 2, 2009

Had been watching pi zi ying xiong! Omgosh~~ Damn nice show.

It had been so long since a drama caught my eye and glued me to the com screen.

Watch till epi7 already since last night!

I like the story plot, the actors, the scenes, the music, the everything!

Such a perfect match for me!

Okay i'm really high over it. xD

WestCoast is quite a nice place to go! :D :D :D Went with yuan on friday night.

Played some of the playground games and i feel my childhood days coming back to me. (:

阴暗的天空，淡淡的小雨，微微的海风，明亮的闪电。

These describe the weather. Love it! (: Must go again!

You've everything that i've to live without.

I've everything that you've to live without.

But yet we are the best of friends. (:

北京又下大雪了。

你又让我感动了~

Saw this quiz on fb. Thought it wld be fun to do it C:

1. I've come to realize that my hair:
is long

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
I may not be thinking of consequences

4. I've come to realize that all I really need:
is what I’ve already lost

5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
will never be back. Though it used to be mine, but when I give up owning it, I lost it.

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
when I hate. Hate blinds us, obstructs the path towards love.

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:
I’ll have a peaceful sleep.

8. I've come to realize that money:
is not a need.

9. I've come to realize that when I get old:
I think more deeply. I look back.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
at that place. But growing & maturing

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
someone afar.

12. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was:
because of pw. Felt that it was a waste of my tears totally after that. But couldn’t control it during that time.

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
always hang. =___=

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
I want to get back to sleep.

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
pray to my Father in Heaven.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
how to stop my mood swing caused by PMS.

17. I've come to realize that my life:
is fine for me. (:

18. I've come to realize that my favourite drink is:
Milk tea.

19. I've come to realize that today I will:
Jiayou for research! Stay cheerful. (:

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
Have a dreamless sleep.

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
Go to school & meet XBD in the morning!~.~

22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
join Mercy Relief together with … (: (: (:

23. I've come to realize that the person/people who is most likely to repost this is/are:
people who want to reflect abt themselves?

24.I've come to realize relationships:
is complicated.

25. I've come to realize that love:
is something that I need in life. Abide faith, hope and love, greatest of all is love. Cause God is love. (:

26. I've come to realize my best guy friend(s):
is someone who’s always quietly there. Always supporting me when I need it. (:

27. I've come to realize my best girl friend(s):
are all sorts of gals! But they are great frens afterall.

28. I've come to realize food:
Is a great temptation.

29: I've come to realize that this year:
is coming to an end soon.

30. I've come to realize heartbreak is:
a feeling which can be avoided.

31. I've come to realize that the last person i liked:
feels like my brother.

32. I've come to realize that my sister:
is the GREATEST SIS ON EARTH! ♥

33. I've come to realize that crying:
is not a sign of weakness. It’s a sign of strength.

34. I've come to realize that death:
is what awaits all man.

35. I've come to realize that if I'm sick:
I’ll heal.

36. I've come to realize that when I'm bored:
I think of random stuff.

37. I've come to realise that FaceBook's notes:
is very interesting & thought-provoking sometimes.

38. I've come to realise that in a relationship:
will work out only with God’s chosen pairs.

39. I've come to realise that we have to:
make the best out of what we have.

40. I've come to realise that:

I realised so many things this year… xD

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Back at Research! (:
It's so nice to meet those mates again. YAYNESS~
Haha had a great afternoon catching up with them and laming.
Cracked so many jokes & laughed my head off.
Char, Wendy, Heidi, Liyue & Agnes! :D Feel so comfortable spending the afternoon with them. (:
Not forgetting DrLim's quantum in a nutshell tutorial. Rekindled my learning spirit. Had been slacking & seriously not thinking for the past 3 weeks. TSK TSK. My brains rusty liao~ ):
:D :D :D :D :D December here i come~
Oh this reminds me of NRP! Report due soon. Oh no~~~

曾经以为我是了解自己的。
后来才发现，原来你比我更了解我。
连我自己都不知道自己想要什么的时候，你知道。
但是遗憾的是，你那么向往自由，谁也留不住你。
你是风。曾经是云的我，现在是雨。
你是火。曾经是凤凰的我，现在是飞蛾。
想知道的是，你还是风，是火吗？

最痛苦的时候，我总能再hy那里找到安慰。Thanks sister~ ♥

Monday, October 26, 2009

久

Long since i last blogged! (:
Had been in a state of "no comments" abt my life for the past week. -.-
But now i'm in a state of "got comments" so back to blogging. (Okay i think this is pure lame)

I went for SCREAM. & not very embarrassed to admit that i caused traffic jam. Haha but it was in the dark, so no one recognised me! Yay. =___='' Oh wells... it's like many friends were saying i shouldnt got for scream cause it's not my cup of tea. Hmm... but to me, i wan to try out new stuff! And this is the mentality that i set for myself at the beginning of the year. Sorry yuan for causing so much inconvenience! (: But it's really nice to sit & slack in front of 7eleven.

It's like JC1's ending soon!~~ So fast. Now i treasure the people around me even more. One more year together and then we part. ): ): ):

Got back all of my results. Far above my expectations. DAAAC. So i'm really satisfied. (: Thank Lord. Must work harder next year for Alevels. JIAYOUS. ^^ I need to find my stamina back. Haha i'm officially a "got life de mugger" =.='''

我发觉似乎人有的时候真的可以为另一个人付出自己的全部，放弃自己的所有。
Cant nobody do it like you.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

值

WAHHHH...~~~ 今天又做了讨人厌的事情。o(︶︿︶)o 唉... 又让自己的情绪成为了别人的负担。真的觉得挺失败的。): 以后一定要注意以下。

& 为了你，不值得。^^

Got back chem & 1/2 CSC. Expected, but still quite disappointed. It's not a matter of how much i got, it's a matter of whether i put in my best effort into it. Maths is kinda screwed too. ): ): ): Not whining... seriously not whining. I know i didnt meet my expectations.

失去了那么多之后，希望心是麻木的。
可惜的是，心还是活生生的，还会痛。刺心的痛。
做不到控制自己的感觉，开心就是开心，失落就是失落，痛苦就是痛苦。
不会掩饰，也不想掩饰。
任性的眼泪还是会不争气的流。

我还是不明白你的那个眼神的意思。

Dare to dream big.
Cause Lord's with you where ever you go. (:
Praise Jesus. ♥
Learn to be thankful, especially for the Lord, our greatest blessing.

Monday, October 19, 2009

想

MPS today!
I actually like going to MPS alot! (: (: I get to interact with people from all walks of life. Feeling first hand that there's so many people out there, even in a country like Singapore, struggling to support their family and themselves. Understanding the community in Singapore a little more. Learning that there's still people who cares for them, sacrificing their precious time, working as a volunteer, despite their busy schedule as a working adult. Some stories really touch my heart. Sigh, but the best i can do for them is to write a letter. It really inspires me to do more for them in the future.

Dunno why... thinking of Darwin's theories recently. 进化论 xD

And we'll get back papers next week. Not anticipating them. Really. Cause i know i didn't work hard enough. So prepare myself to embrace disappointment. And i'm having the "nevermind, next time work harder" mentality already, even before promo started. ):

Don't just live to play the game of life.
It'll be such a waste.
Cause life's not a game. (: (: (:

黑夜的颜色能否黑一点
让沿途的街灯能浮现
这个城市的安静能否再安静一瞬间
让我的求救在微弱你都听的见
为何一到黄昏寂寞好深
住回你怀里的路程
等你的脚步声给我新生
我的夜盲症就快要变永恒
任性的泪水若洗净双眼
或许哭能恢复我视线
慢条斯里的时间若能加速到达明天
或许我的你能提早些见我一面
思念总是让我受困脱不了身
我摸黑找不到回家的路程
等待熟悉的脚步声给我心疼
我的夜盲症才不会变永恒

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Back

YAY Finally back from camp (:
Camp was hmm okay. Feel neutral about it. Not that exciting, just Work Work Work. xD
To entertain myself, i start to observe the ISYF facilitators' leadership styles etc. Haha some people just have the natural charisma which makes me willing to be a team player in their team. Others i dunno what to say. xD I've learnt quite alot. ^^ Really great experience in this sense. (: And i dunno why, i just feel like working very hard for some thing in ISYF. Hmm... It's a good sign i suppose, cause it's nice to be kept busy on my responsibilities and forget about procrastination and other what nots going on in my life. So Jiayou YH! During camp, while i was 纳闷ing about smthg, a call made my long tiring day very happy. (: Thanks. (And i just realise, some things that are important in my life always have the short form YH or HY. Fated with my name. Okay this's random comment.-.-'')

Went for service after that. Not bad, just made me even more confuse about my belief. Nvm shall settle that myself someday. Recently, realised that Jermain's very very very very very wise. Learnt alot from him. (:

So that's about all. Except that i caught a really bad cold from staying in HCIBS. The food there is like so oily, the pillow there's so dusty, the shower room there's so small. I guess they contributed to my 3 day long of cold & sorethroat. ): Yay maybe if i hug my pink carebear i can recover faster. But i miss the sceneries in boarding school. It's really damn damn nice to look out the HCIBS windows at night. Can see city center!!!! (: (: (: (: (: With all the beautiful lights & stars that shine through the night from my room. I really love 夜景 alot ever since young. Leading me closer to my peaceful heart. On the first day there, i was touched to tears by the scenery outside the window at night. Really awesome & magnificent view. So i don't mind staying HCIBS despite all those uncomfortable things due its great 夜景.

还记得小时候，住在新宾自治县的时候，爷爷奶奶家的夜景是没有灯火的。有的只是天上的星星月亮，闻到的是旁边小溪的味道，感觉到的是冬天的寒冷。但是，很单纯，很快乐。总是认为世界是完美的。生活节奏很慢，人与人之间感情很好。将来，我也想在那里养老。（是不是想得太远了？）后来，去了沈阳和北京之后，夜景给我另一种韵味。灯火通明，马路上车来车往，闻到污染的空气，感觉到人与人之间的距离。生活节奏加快了许多，压力变大了，但是，还是挺温暖的，因为有那么疼我的一个亲人，陪我看夜景，陪我等日出。夜景是我最爱的景色。

只有你能明白，夜景对我有多么多么的重要。我能找到另一个像你一样了解我的一举一动的人吗？或许因为我们特殊的血缘关系，让你能从我的脸上看出每一心情，在连我自己都不知如何形容自己的感觉，你都明白了解，不用我多说。过去的不再重来，离开的人不再回来。从小到大，失去的亲人不少，姑姑，小姨等等。永远失去的味道，体验不止一次。让我更加珍惜眼前的人。(:

Yupps ultra long post. xD Shall end here.
10.30pm say goodbye, you & me. (:

Thursday, October 15, 2009

开

(: (: (: (: (: (:
Yay seriously i finally 看开了~~ （this is like the dunno how many times i'm saying it, but this time it's a determined decision that 我看开了）
Sorry for being bad tempered/stoning/emoing the past few days.
I'm okay le. ;D Yupps~~~
为了更美好的明天，我要努力哦! ^^
我向一直这样，快乐下去。同时，也带快乐给我身边珍贵的每一个人。
凡事我一定要勇敢一点，更努力一点。
现在的我觉得，为了你而不开心，真得好不值得。我挺不明白的，设计让我得不到我想要的东西，会让你得到你想要的东西吗？挺遗憾的……不过，也只能这样了。这一局，你赢得彻彻底底，我也输得甘心。但是，重要的是，我也已经不在乎了。谢谢你让我学会看开，学会拿得起，放得下。
就是在这样的时候，我好想回中国，找到你，然后告诉你，我后悔了。
我在想，如果当初我勇敢一点，今天会不会比较快乐呢？
可是，有些路，错过了，就难以再找回。
我唯一能做的，就这样，勇敢地走下去。
祈祷至少，你拥有你的梦与快乐。(:

蔡淳佳 - 回到最初

最近都流行粉紫色
最新最潮的都有了
为甚麽富有了甚麽都不缺了
简单的快乐会不见呢
为生活盲目的跑着
为爱情又被伤害了
当所有变复杂变难懂变苦涩
你流的泪水是不是真的
看自己变复杂变自私以后
简单的快乐怎么不见了

能不能回到最初
最自然最灿烂的笑容
没有钻石的爱情我也会被感动
让自己放空恢复漂亮的脸孔
你吻我一下脸就红
就回到最初最晴朗最开阔的天空
搬走摩天楼别挡住彩虹
我崇拜的英雄和最爱的卡通
全都出现在今夜的美梦

能不能回到最初棉花糖在手中的笑容
钻石换不了爱情的心动
让自己放轻松什麽都能想通

回到最初再也梦不到的梦 ~~

And there's so many things to do this holidays!~~ No time to think of these complicated stuff xD
Haha (: 2 researches, SSEF research paper, CCAs to look after, and PW
Still i need to mug for SATs cause according to jn my writing skills for SAT's damn bad. ):
1 more year to go... Do my best for all things. (:
And i need a good time management skill!
For me, making myself busy is a good remedy for certain hurts. xD
Maybe i should make myself busy, so that i can numb this painful feeling...

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

舍

有些事情，我不喜欢去争取，因为我总是觉得，是我的就是我的，不是我的就不是我的。
以前是这样，现在还是这样，以后也会是这样。不过，人生真的是很奇妙。我总会想如果以前，没有遇见某些人，没有发生某些事，我还会是现在的我吗？这些人，这些事，每个都在心中留下了记号，有的绘出了美丽的风景，有的成为污点，漂之不去。无奈。
Why cant i just convince myself?如果那样的话，我就不会那么心烦了。

And from today onwards, I wouldnt let my negative feelings be a burden for my families & friends. (: I'll stay strong. Although i might still be 纳闷、遗憾、伤感 about some stuff, i'll sort of these negative feelings with the ability & the love you all have given me. So don't worry about me. (: (: (: I'm thankful.

It's just idk how to say. Complicated complications I suppose.
Trusting my God so much, leaving my things into Your hands.
And yet You let this happen to me. When all i want was something that simple.
I may not be fulfilling my promises to You, but neither do i see that You have fulfilled Your promises to me. Hmmm...
*deep in thoughts*

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

缘

Sabs are nice at the end of the day (:
Quite a breakthrough~ To sing a whole song in front of the class. ^^
But i dont really like singing in front of the crowd. Hmm cause to me, singing is a rather personal thingy. It's for me to like 抒发情感, not really to perform. But it's a great platform to train confidence. And i do love to sing!~~v

And I'm really really disappointed! WHY IS NANJING NANJING M18? I SERIOUSLY WANT TO WATCH IT IN CINEMA~~It's like a must watch for all Chinese! To learn about our culture & history, to learn about the tough times our ancestors went through, to learn about the importance of peace. Sigh it's like the same case with Passion of Christ, it's very worth watching for everyone, but it's just that the scenes are too gory/bloody/violent (though these are true depictions) for teenagers. Hmm but my cutest Daddy promised me that he'll buy nanjing nanjing disc for me! YAY so not tt disappointed anymore ^^ :D :D :D

快了方法并不复杂。
当拥有已经是失去就勇敢的放弃。
Before today, i never believe in fate.
Well, now i do. In another way.
Everything's planned, by God's divine hands.

Monday, October 12, 2009

放

YAY LIBERATION (: 解放了~.~

不知为什么，却没有想象中的开心。考完试后，压抑已久的一些不开心的情绪得到了释放，所以现在，做什么事都力不从心。烦恼年年有，今年特别多。下午玩完pool之后，晚上就展示了我的消费能力，自己一个人到处逛逛，让自己冷静下来，买了好多东西，沉重的心情也好多了。逛街的时候想了好多的事情，遗憾的是，心中最最最烦的事情还没解决。从生日的前一天开始，心结系上了后，真的很难打开。
有的时候，我真恨羡慕能做到无忧无虑的人。但是，真正能过做到无忧无虑，人似乎要做到无求。人总是有可望，可望得到多一点关爱等等，有了可望，就会因为没有得到心中所望而烦恼，而忧愁。
然后，我在想，人为什么会做梦？会在空闲时想象将来幸福的生活？虽然直到现实生活中美梦是很难实现的。不过，说到底，梦是人生的发电厂，没有梦，何来人生的冲劲和动力？梦是人们的一个憧憬……一个前进的目标。可是做的梦越美，就越难将自己唤醒，面对事实。

有些事情、有些东西、有些人，拿起了，就放不下了。
所以，我现在在后悔，当初，为什么要拿起？):

Father, let my heart be Your sanctuary. Fill it with Your love & Spirit.
For, when things get tough, i cant find the strength to continue. I need to find my rest in You.
But You creates miracles for me. For whenever i drift away from You, You've Your own special ways of pulling me back, never once did You forsake me. And i know, with You, i can survive through this trial. (: With You, i don't need to be anxious about anything as You'll add unto me things that i need.
Like what Jialer & I discussed that day, we're really sinful and unfair to our God. Even when He gave us such great love, we still have such a strong desire for the love & protection given by the ones we love on this Earth.

逛了这么久，写了这么多，心情真的是舒服了好多。
又可以开开心心的过每一天了。(:
心情吐出来后，真的是如释重负。(:
现在凌晨2点，我应该睡觉了。不过，当我望出窗外，今夜的夜色是如此美丽。(:
所以，不想睡了~ 用心的祈祷，所求定会实现。(:
如果有你陪着我，我会更幸福。

Sunday, October 11, 2009

RAHHHH

My great sunny Sunday morning is like so disturbed by a stupid incident. Sigh as i open my email inbox, that sad thing appeared. ): ): ): Urgh... Anyways, i think i understood that when life gives you things that you can't change, make the best out of it... I'm sure i'll be able to make myself happy out of it!^^
So it's okay. (: (: (: Smiles

And i really appreciate 09S6F (: Cause i think i'm actually very happy to be in this class, with friends who can bring so much laughter into my life. They are the people, whom i wish i'll still keep in touch with, 10 years, 20 years, 30 years... down the road. Attending their weddings, having aftnn teas, looking at their children (opps i tink 想太远了) etc
So hope the class can be more bonded!~~

Saturday, October 10, 2009

hmmm... [edited]

While reading CSC, decided to take a break every one hour and slack around for 15 min.
Lol for me, this produces maximum productivity after differentiation. =.='' Oh wells, i'm now at chapter 2~ which means the one i detest most... 政治. This chapter's THICK stack of notes is simply HORRENDOUS. ): Can anyone cheer me up with some soft toys, arouma of cappuccino and oreo cheesecake/tiramisu, while i plough through the notes? HAHA(: shall go hug hug my soft toys before i start work again. Oh wells, you know 我就是这样. That simply childish nerd. xP
Oh i'm back at blogger again. =.= Listening to Sky of Love OST. I love that movie~~ Cried again, even though it's my 4th time watching!~ It's just that touching. The heartwarming scenes give me loads of warmth in today's cold weather.

Back again! It's 7 pm. Cant believe that i slept for 3hr straight~~
Btw, as i was reading CSC, i realised it's an interesting subject too! (: Learning about almost everything (just like IH which i enjoyed almost everything, esp Han's lessons and except rushing during exams) about CHINA, from culture, politics to economics! And 身为炎黄子孙的我，feel very connected to its contents! Also, it really broadens my perspective about alot of things! And last but not least, dinners with my parents become more engaging and lively as the 3 of us chatted about the stuff i learnt in CSC and start to crack some lame jokes at random moments.
Yay~~~ so conclusion is CSC FTW!!!^^

CSC读着读着，我又想起了心中心烦的事。有的时候，有的真相让人误会后，就很难再向其解释，很难启齿把真相告诉人家。不是有意想骗她，只是误会后，再解释，总是怕人家会认为以前是故意隐瞒。所以，真的好难解释哦。三年了，始终想告诉你，只是不知如何开口。我们俩之间，白色谎言。就算真相对你我来说其实都不重要，因为那只是中鸡毛蒜皮的小事实，但是，我真的不想你对我有什么误会。

"Just like a seed has an image of the tree in it, so does your heart have an image of who you are becoming. Look for stories in movies and books that resonate in your heart, and you will find glimpses of your possible futures. What is your favorite story?"
-FB application God wants you to know

Friday, October 9, 2009

傻傻的

这几天有些人一直善意说我傻。):
哈哈，其实想想看，自己有时候是好傻。
我最傻的时候应该是我更自己过不去吧。
为了自己的固执、任性、错误、过去，跟自己过不去。
其实，人生真的不一定是什么都懂、什么都会、什么都了解才会幸福快乐。
懂了、会了、了解了，反而更加增加身上的负担。
懂了、会了、了解了，有些事情就更难原谅、更难谅解、更放不开。
懂了、会了、了解了后，你就不能装着自己不懂、不会、不了解。
这样，傻一点，会比较快乐。懵懂无知也可能是一种幸福。

如果你有事想告诉我，就大大方方的讲嘛！~ 你再这样，我会不安、会像太多、会胡思乱想的。(: 好不好？

我要大力推荐：蔡淳佳《回到最初》
当纯真已无法简单当美好也不再纯粹我只想回到最初…
“用力走，多年后，我才看到，昨天曾有你，明天还有你，给我不变的守候。”
It's a great album with a collection of smoothing songs! The lyrics & melodies are so nice & meaningful. Plus her voice... A total WOW. (:
A must listen will be 首播主打《回到最初》。

& today i wanna blog about Jialer! ♥
认识她已经三年了，与她的关系可以说是起起伏伏，时而好，时而彼此生大大的气。不过其实说到底，这几年，她的变化是挺大的，是越变越可爱吧！^^
说到这里，我很期待BSP TRIP~~~ 因为有可以和那一帮可爱的朋友出去游玩了~
但是，我依然会很想念中三和中四的中国旅游。有很多值得回味永久的回忆。
我爱地球，我想环游世界做许多有意义的事。(:
Mercy Relief~~~~ (:

就算我曾淌着泪狠心放弃自己然而你却说不会把我遗弃
thank You Lord. (:

Thursday, October 8, 2009

心脏病

一颗心噗嗵噗嗵的狂跳。
一瞬间烦恼烦恼全忘掉！
是件好事？还是件坏事？
我不想管了。还是顺其自然。
希望我不要有心脏病才好!

不过我相信祷告的力量。我相信我全能主的力量。我相信您会给我一条明路。(:
我去努力！~
大家保重哦♥

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Edited~

Why sometimes things are just so hard to understand? T___T
总是这个过程，抓起、放下，得与舍。经历了一次一次，自己似乎没什么长进。除了更容易放开外。
别在胡思乱想了。

不说让人让己纳闷的事了！
呵呵，对了，近来才发觉身边有一个的朋友，真是十足像一个孩子，他让我有了回到童年的感觉。好可爱，真开心。不过总觉得我总是让他讨厌。好伤感哦~ 但是，说实话，有些事，没人比他有天分。向huiyi形容他后，huiyi毫不客气地开玩笑的说了一句"你老了，开始怀念童年，开始恋童了。" 不过庆幸的是，她是了解我的。:D

Hahaha today MSN's an interesting place... (:
当你微笑的说你看开了，我真的很开心哦。
从你的眼神中，我知道你真的看开了。
“晴天哦，快下雨了哦，天又放晴了哦。”（今天的天气预报 xP）
(: 要永远这样笑下去。
这样的你最最最美丽。

2 down. 3 more to go.
Jiayou ♥
喜欢放在心中，你还可以一直喜欢下去。强求，到最后，你连喜欢的权利都没有了。